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[15 Dec 2004|10:02pm] |
I wrote a poem in my school daybook..it's this book we have to do worksheet kind of stuff every 2 weeks and turn it in for 25% of you grade. It's easy stuff, graded on effort and completion.
Mrs.Garrie, the smartest person I've never known, wrote a few encouraging things next to this poem. I thought I'd share, even if I know it's one of my worst works because I wrote it in the bus, in a bumpy ride, in a groggy mood, 5 minutes before it was due. But hey, they say streams of consciousness are our best, no?
Anyway. She wrote "Very Lyrical (I know the music is inside you!" and later, by the last stanza "Is there ever a need to hold on...does perfection ever get better than this? Interesting thought" Ah! a grasp! An understanding.(the reason to live, the reason to keep writing) I'm in love.
Originally, it was going to be titled "For Stephanie" but really, it's more general. Not to ruin it or anything, but it's about me and how I look at the people around me. In this case, Steph. She's one of the only few people I feel this for. Well, here goes. (untitled for now?)
Listening to the embers far away
I lay down the truth for you
Darkness is only found when looked for, my friend
Depression only accomplished to the weak
Like an ember you go on, faltering but lit still
Listening to the embers far away
I notice the clumpy mascara
now on my face
I hadn't looked for that darkness
(and you know it)
Listening to the embers far away
I wonder if your tree will ever stop growing
ever stop flourishing
when will the thinking stop
Some nights I want to leave and know
I've met perection
But something holds me back:
The quest to it is not over
and I doubt not that I'll ever find it
I noticed, as I was checking for typos, how some words pretty much give it all away if you pay attention.. like "hadn't" as in past tense.. and in now have. Anyway.
Way different than my usual style, I know. The thing with daybook is, they set up certain challengers/guidelines. For the better? I don't know. Maybe. Sometimes. Maybe when you're rushing on a bumpy bus ride? Or maybe not.
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[15 Sep 2004|08:09pm] |
Title: "Shame is the shadow of love"
pairing: R/G
rating: R
major warnings: Incest, not beta'd.
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[01 Sep 2004|09:53pm] |
Title: "For Steph"
Rating: PG-13?
Pairing: Pansy/Ginny
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| A dream and a thought... |
[31 Jul 2004|09:57am] |
We close in on;
an empty room full of people
slow music starts and the girls startle
some are asked, some are not
but a couple stands in the center of the world, unaware
Arms around his neck
his around her waist
No space in between
So close it's believed they are One.
Staring into each other enchantingly
the world is frozen
holding him close
knowing the moment will never end
their movements so slow
their bodies unaware
not one bit, hardly at all
"tedious," they say; far from it
once slow and soft, the music has sped up
rough and fast now
but they're on the still image of the past
Holding him close
They hold each other slowly
they've control the world
And the world is you
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| fanfic |
[16 Jul 2004|11:50pm] |
title: "Wizard's Chess is Everything to that one red-haired kid"
author: Ana [me]
pairing: Ron/King
rating: R
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[16 Jul 2004|06:11pm] |
An Ode to my rainbow scarf
the opiate of my smile
are the colors dangling down my neck
vertically downward:
purple, blue, green
yellow, orange and red
all a bright part of me
beneath her are my faults
hiding them so welll
she stands glorious, protecting me
protecting me from what derives
of the little black cloud above
she serves me as the cold falls
an adornation on the outside,
a friend on the inside
i hope she'll never be misplaced!
without her I'm not worthy
without her I am lost
and ugly
with her I am a better me
those colors dangling down my neck
taste my mind
and it obsesses, pathetically, mentally, emotionally
and my mind tastes my now rainbow heart
a feast of me
they all feed off the strong
they all feed off the colorful
we all feed off the rainbow scarfed girl
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| I found this scrap of paper under my bed last night... |
[16 Jul 2004|06:04pm] |
shadowing sorrow from the depths of his oceans
high mountain peaks of memory risen
thin lips bring bliss to all cartilaged ears
long, pale neck, opiate of our remedy
gleaming bald head
shaved, naked
all emotional clothing long forgotten
razor-sharp teeth
fast fingers, quick-witted mouth
playing melodies to our utter satisfaction
lullabies to our eternal sleep
the music, it helps us fist our hands on tighter
until all else matters not
and our hands are translucent in effort
our pounding blood shown easily
all for you
all because
all long paused
to you
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| Rant thing. |
[16 Jul 2004|05:43pm] |
Now that I've taken upon organizing my writing [you see, before it was just like a little bit of random writing here and a little bit of random writing there, then lose said papers accidentally and lose all writing] I've noticed how confusing it is.
I don't know if it's just me and if maybe it's just that I'm a really bad writer but I have a really, really, really hard time thinking up good plots for anything.
I can write you a 5 page essay on human emotions and make it interesting. I can write a plot-less story and make it beautiful [oh that sounds so egotistical...] but I can not, for the life of me, write a good plot. Or, if I do, I don't think of it on my own. The idea of this plot either sprouts out of my mind thanks to another person's idea. I'm a huge believer in originality when it comes to writing, though, so I don't completely rip off others' plots. I just grab it, modify it and completely change it around and call it my own. Make sense?
Or, sometimes, someone else's work will spark an idea in my head and that will lead to a plot on my own. But I hardly ever come up with something 100% by myself and it really upsets me. I guess I'm not really fit for writing, not at all. Maybe I'm more of an article sort of person. You know, the story is given to you, you just write and bitch about it. I guess that's more of what I was skilled for.
But I like writing stories too much. I haven't even really written any but just long passages that will someday be in supposed story. For example, ( the book i want to write ) ... I don't even have a plot for that yet. I know it seems like I do, but I honestly don't. I'm so bad at this. But I'm hoping school will strengthen this fault of mine...school never fails, right?! hah.
Really though, I'm going to write this book, plot or no, and it's going to be amazing. So. Watch out.
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| FANFIC |
[16 Jul 2004|12:46am] |
This was my first incesty fic. So, again, not the best. But I don't cringe that much when I read it. I did some editing after getting it back from wife GL. Enjoy! This idea came thanks to Angelina and I's lonely rides on the bus. Erotic ideas emerged of an oily Ron fixing a car and a horny Ginny walking in on the ...scene. So. I decided to write it out.
Title: "Freckley Demented"
Pairing: R/G
Rating: NC-17
Author: Ana
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| FANFIC! |
[16 Jul 2004|12:15am] |
This was the first fic I EVER wrote and I thought I had lost it forever and ever but thanks to my wife GL[she had it in her comp] I have it once more. I cringe at re-reading, but hey, I was an amateur ;) [sarcasm like whoa because I'm not any better now] But really the story falls under every cliche of fanfiction and hopefully my fanfiction has changed since :-/ That doesn't mean I don't like it. I'm okay with this fic, but I'm just warning you; it was my first :)
Title: "Coiled my tounge around her bumblebee mouth"
Pairing: D/Hr
Rating: NC-17
Author: Ana
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[09 Jul 2004|10:48pm] |
Title: "Lost and Found"
Author: Ana
Rating: PG
Pairing: Luna/Harry
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[06 Jul 2004|09:28pm] |
Title: “Forbidden”
Author: Ana
Rating: PG
Summary: Draco discovers his true feelings once his father has awoken them
Pairing: D/Hr.
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[02 Jul 2004|09:44pm] |
I really hope there is no God
because if there is, I defy him
My hate brings us peace yet understandable statement
If I could change you
I would change your
Smile
If I could change you
Your smile would chance into a frown
and given to those you love
your original frown will be a smile
the smile you give me
down the hall of memories
smile to me
freely
untrue happiness
you give me
cause i changed your smile
into a frown
and now you're gone
To those you love, you now frown
and those you hate you now smile
I see you smile at my sight
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[02 Jul 2004|09:39pm] |
If only the chance to get hurt
would rise from its depths of closure
I'd be fulfilled and realized
My broken heart, free to mend
for confused minds and perturbed faces
I need something, anything
to show me love is not just a thought
I want to thank the world
for never bothering to linger
at my sight
If you hold me I will wince
from your loving grudge
from your eternal sight
but this is all just in my head
the end is near and you're not here
Singing words I know not of
my biggest fear to never find out.
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| article |
[28 Jun 2004|08:37pm] |
Fanfiction – A fanatic’s paradise
By Ana Colio
The world of fanatic fiction has been around for many years, possibly since the 1970s. It serves as a comfort zone to all obsessed fanatics as they write their own stories with the books’ characters. Before the internet, fanfiction was shared from fan to fan, face to face.
Fanatics from all around the world, all ages develop their own versions of their favorite stories.
“I have read and written fanfiction and it’s more than just a fan having fun. It’s a fan’s dream come true on paper,” opiniated Summer Puente.
Perhaps it’s the excitement of making the characters you read and dream about do as you please or the pressure of the limits you set for yourself by following your admired author’s ways….Either way, it’s a fanatic’s haven.
There are many kinds of fanfiction, so watch out! Much like the rating of movies, ‘G’ is for General Audiences. Most of these fics are directed to the children fanbase. ‘PG’ is for parental guidance. Though some of these may be a bit racy, most are safe to read. ‘PG-13’ is for children over thirteen. Most of these are rated ‘PG-13’ for language and romantic affairs.
Last, but not least, is the infamous ‘R,’ for Restricted. These may include some graphic writing that is not suitable for children. However, the adult content may fit the situation and most are beautifully written.
The well-known fanatic fiction website, www.fanfiction.net, has been asked by many successful authors to remove the stories written on their literary works. Amongst these authors are: Anne Rice, Raymond Feist, Irene Radford and Terry Goodkind.
Fans are allowed to write fanfic as long as they don’t publish it considering those characters are copyrighted and they could get in serious trouble. Now join the fangirl frenzy and check out the fanfiction of your choice!
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| A thought |
[27 Jun 2004|04:04pm] |
do we really get better with time? Or do we just stop after a little while?
I don't know why but I seem to go at a faster pace than most people. My whole life's been on fast forward and it's come to my advantage many times. But sometimes I wish it was not so, so I could enjoy the ride and stare at some blooming trees, no?
But, no. I have to do everything so fast and.. bleh. I'm always scared of telling anyone this cause they'll be like "ok, ANA, egotistical, are we?" I really wish I was. Atleast then I'd think you all foolish for believing so.. and I wouldn't care. But I do.
Anyway, I think the reason my traits advance so fast is because I'm so passionate about things [as i think we've all noticed] It's like a mashing of organization, fear of procastination, adoration and likeness.. and this is what you get. A girl that develops everything extra fast.
I don't know what to do anymore. ::shrug:: It doesn't necessarily mean I'll become an awe-fucking-some writer in like 2 days, but I'm just scared of.. what if writing is the only think I don't excel at?
I'm so scared it makes my stomach do backflips at the mere thought of it X-|
Whoa there. You put a keyboard infront of me, I pour myself out through it and this is what you get.
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